O Lord,
thou knowest my great unfitness for service,
    my present deadness,
    my inability to do anything for thy glory,
    my distressing coldness of heart.
I am weak, ignorant, unprofitable,
    and loathe and abhor myself.
I am at a loss to know what thou wouldest
       have me to do,
   for I feel amazingly deserted by thee,
   and sense thy presence so little;
Thou makest me possess the sins of my youth,
   and the dreadful sin of my nature,
   so that I feel all sin,
   I cannot think or act but every motion is sin.
Return again with showers of converting grace
   to a poor gospel-abusing sinner.
Help my soul to breathe after holiness,
   after a constant devotedness to thee,
   after growth in grace more abundantly every day.
O Lord, I am lost in the pursuit of this blessedness,
And am ready to sink because I fall short
      of my desire;
Help me to hold out a little longer,
   until the happy hour of deliverance comes,
   for I cannot lift my soul to thee
   if thou of thy goodness brings me not nigh.
Help me to be diffident, watchful, tender,
   lest I offend my blessed Friend
   in thought and behaviour;
I confide in thee and lean upon thee,
   and need thee at all times to assist and lead me.
O that all my distresses and apprehensions
   might prove but Christ’s school
   to make me fit for greater service
   by teaching me the great lesson of humility.

The Valley of Vision, pp. 180-181

Scripture Meditation: 2 Cor. 12:9


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